Are you there universe? it's me, janice.

okay, bad day today. it looks as if i will never find a job that will enable me to support myself and is fulfilling and won't be so crazy as the part time one i have now. i hate the commute and the conditions under which i am working now, and i need benefits. i am either not qualified because i haven't worked in any field other than the best mother in the world category or i am looked at as being too old for the position they want to fill. it is just crippling because i need to move on, out and start anew, but no one will give me a chance, except for the job i have now, and i am just biding my time there, trying to move on to less stressful pastures. maybe i need to work for myself, do something i know i am pretty good at and just go for it. all i can do is lose money, i already do not have benefits so i couldn't lose those. and really the worse thing about all this is how useless it makes me feel. it's a horrible feeling and i hate feeling this way. so all alone in my misery. i just can't seem to climb out of here.