if i had any inkling that i would be in the predicament that i find myself in now, i would have gone back to school to get my masters and then maybe work on a PhD, (knowing me, i would just work on it for a while and then just say forgetaboutit....) and all this comes from a day at work where i was trying to be positive about what i was doing, and bang, a piece of paper goes missing and whose fault could it be??? i can happily say it's not my fault because i hardly ever throw anything, especially if it's an important piece of paper, and it's not my piece of paper....i just wonder if there is a fun, unstressful job out there just waiting for me to apply for it and here comes the special part....it has benefits!! That's the most important part for me now, health insurance. i do not really care so much about the salary...i used to have a nice, cushy life and then later it turned into a nice, comfortable life and now it has turned into i can barely keep my head above water life( thanks in part to a lying, cheating SOB, but that's another 1000 blogs full of stories). and i'm okay with that. i'm the same person, money or no money. so there goes the plan to reduce me to nothing so i would just blow away. i will never give you that satisfaction. i would just like to be able to take care of myself and i'm afraid of what will happen if i get sick. and since i'm not getting any younger this dilemma is getting to be extremely serious and very worrisome. do all uninsured's think about having insurance 24/7 like i do?? it is worse than the lose weight worry!! it's on my short list and i am determined to fulfill my short list this year!! keep all your fingers crossed!! and what does all this have to do with going bach to school?? I have no idea, i'm just trying to figure out too many things at once....and praying that some of them sort themselves out for me!!
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