just when you think you are moving along in the right direction( that means actually having a direction) you take a few baby steps backwards...i don't really mind a few back steps, i'd prefer a few baby steps forward, but what gets to me is the consequences some of these back steps have on other peoples' life paths and how they might set them back. and that is what keeps me awake at night. i know, i'm not the one in control of everyone's life , but i can help prod them in what i consider the right direction, can't i? and then i feel better that they are not just wasting their time...although they do not feel that way...i wonder why i do?? i wish i had the kind of personality that didn't try to control every single moment of the day and didn't sweat the small stuff. i have tried to be that person, and am still trying to be that person, but it doesn't come easy to me. i'm pretty sure i'd be a lot more stress free if i'd only learn to completely let go...just something else to work on...boy am i a messed up project in process!
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