day 22 not such a great one...

n

not feeling in the pink today...it seems that everything i attempted to accomplish at work today went south. i am having such a terrible time understanding all the intricate steps of patent law and the lovely Patent office forms and filings and lalalalala....yes at times that's all i hear.....llalalalalalalala.....because i just can't seem to get my mind around what it is i'm supposed to be doing...it feels sort of like learning a foreign language at top speed of 200, and there is no stopping to look up what you do not understand. i'm hoping it's not the area of law itself, although i do know it is difficult to comprehend, so maybe it's the way in which i am training to grasp this foreign language. having it thrown at me from all different angles full speed just doesn't seem to work for me. and to cut myself some slack, i have learned how to fly solo in some avenues, but i still need someone to check over my shoulder to make sure i'm at 100% and not 98%. it's just tough. i think i'm just too ancient to master this. and it makes me really frustrated because several centuries ago i was really smart! philosophy major and all that. i've re-read some of my college papers and wondered, what the heck happened to that person?? anyway, i'll keep plodding along until i get it or my head explodes. i'm betting on the explosion, but i hope i might still have a few active brain cells left to actually do this!