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if i was to rate my complaints regarding the hand of life cards  i've been dealt, TRUST, would certainly be at the very top of my list. oh, there are plenty of other issues and topics on my list  that i will be happy to go on about later, but today i need some help (universe are you listening????) with trust issues. if you have someone in your life that you have grown up with, lived most of your adult life with, and pretty much have known all your life, and out of the blue they aren't the same person. they aren't even the shell of the person you thought they were.. did they have a personality and morality change of life, or were they living a lie all the time you thought you knew them?? And is it your fault they were able to fool you all this time, or are some people just wired to be really good at lying, like sociopaths and psychopaths? And if they are sociopaths do you forgive them  and their lying ways because they can't help themselves?? i am having a difficult time in the forgiveness category with this.how can you forgive someone who created a lifetime of lies? i know i would have a problem lying coolly and easily and i can be truthful on a consistent basis, so why didn't i recognize this behavior and many other behaviors that are associated with the profile of a sociopath?? did i just not want to see it??and how do you learn to trust again? you would think someone who is your life long friend would always be there to catch you when you fall. if you hit the ground and fall to pieces, how do you get up and put yourself back together??